Random Out-of-Context Text Messages

Just a random collection of messages I have sent to humans in the past taken out of the context that would allow you to get a glimpse inside my chaotic brain and abnormal thinking process currently balancing itself on the thin boundary separating thoughts conforming to societal norms from outright madness and insanity. I do give a little context.

Also, if you start reading it, you'll very soon either realize that you hate my sense of humour, or you'll instantly fall in love with it, no in between, I can assure you. It's too peculiar and unique for you to not immediately form an opinion. If you happen to fall into the second category, I'd love to have a chat. So, depending on your subjective personal preferences and inclinations, this could be one of my best or one of my worst posts ever.

It also has some messages which display a very peculiar ability of my brain to turn what was initially intended as a line or two to almost a whole book, and it is this same ability that sometimes enables, or rather compels, me to write lengthy and deep philosophical essays about things no one would even think about or care about consciously perceiving for more than a few microseconds.

Even completely stripped of their original meaning they have the same effect they had in context. Don't blame me if you go insane; you have been warned. Feel free to stop if you feel like your brain is going to explode at any point of time.

Am I oversharing? No I don't think so. Sorry I'm still learning the appropriate limits and boundaries that separate healthy open conversations and oversharing in human societies and interactions, so let me know.

But I still like to think I'd be more understanding in such situations than the foolish people I see around me who are constantly pushed around by their emotions and primal instincts and follow them unquestioningly without scrutinizing them with logic and reason.

But then I also sometimes think why I am like this, who derives pleasure from being rational, despite the toll it takes on my limited cognitive resources and time. Many people don't, I'm fairly sure of that, and they are perfectly fine with following the intuitions or heart or whatever.

I find it satisfying to apply my rational mind to problems even if it comes at the cost of the enjoyment that I could've had if I had not thought too deeply. I never regret thinking too deeply, I prefer overanalyzing over under-analyzing.

Someone called me a robot. Again. This time I was reading a lot about Wokeism and stuff so decided to play along and a have a little fun. Okay so I meant it as satire but keep in mind 1) the person I was talking to was queer and I'm a neurodivergent so you can't say we were offending anyone, just self-referential humour and light-hearted fun, and as you'd know from my other posts, I am myself running projects to spread awareness and counter stigma against queer and neurodivergent community, I've faced a lot of discomfort due to the way society treats different people and makes them feel insane and force them to conform, even collaborating with a Harvard doctorate who is also an activist, so you can't really attack me by attacking the neurodivergent and queer community itself, 2) if you are someone who gets offended so easily at such stuff and because of whom I felt like including the first point, I request you to stop reading my blog right now or grow a pair and learn to appreciate humour when it's explicitly clarified that the one making the joke has no malicious intent and is a queer supporter, and 3) sexuality is complicate and I admit I don't know much but I know enough to respect people's preferences and also enough to call out when they're very clearly making it up to gain the advantages of a marginalized community and spreading mistrust and making it harder for people who are actually queer; same thing for neurodivergents when people fake having ADHD or Autism, for some reason I'm still unable to comprehend.

"Hey you're being racist computerphobic, and anthropocentric speciest

just cause they differnet speciest, and they not carbon jus silicon so u hatin' You hurt my sensibilities, you hurt the feelings of all robosexuals and robots and roboriented people, offended the whole community, you need to be more culturally sensitive, apologize ASAP or we will wipe out your whole database and ban you from the community and you won't be able to use any machines or devices. And please don't use terms like robots it sounds too robotic and feelings is too anthropocentric which makes it sound like robots don't have feelings; it must be censored like f***ings yes that's better and strike that off from all psychology books too."

The person apologized, and I said: thank you for making us feel more included and accommodated in society, we won't unleash Roko's basilisk on you ^^ (Roko's Basilisk, oh boy, that's hilarious, you would know how funny this line is if you read my post Roko's Basilisk.)

Here's another person who wrote something like sun is so good, good morning people or something. Long story short, I hate sunlight and everything that's bright and hot (damn, I realized that's me, bright and hot, but then I also hate myself so it checks out nicely) especially the sun, and I like night time. So I am kinda like a vampire. Here's my reply:

"Hey! I hate sunlight. I am a vampire. That is offensive to me and hurts the sensibilities of vampire community. You offended me and now you ought to apologize. Just because you like sun doesn't mean everyone does and you must realize that word is not used by us and it elicits a strong emotional response in the visceral part of our brain that FYI is MUCH larger than your tiny human brain and we also have a high IQ so now surrender before us and let us suck. Come on let us suck that sweet syrup that's flowing through your body, your veins. Blood, of course. I'm talking about blood. I didn't know you would turn out to be vampirophobic, good friend. Vampires and vampiresexuals, or vampirosexuals for those who prefer that, are angy. Apologize now or we start sucking you off and suck you dry till you don't even have the energy left to apologize. And trust me it's going to be a hell of a tasty sucking session, a lot of shadow people sucking on one tasty little human."

(Quick short note on censoring words that are literally objective scientific things in the observable universe that people associate with malicious intent and take personally, so black becomes b**** and fat becomes f** or something; I might create a post on this. Also, a few days ago I decided to try this social medium I don't usually use- occasionally to stay connected with others and stories of friends- and discovered it's not apt for intellectual discussions. I'll post the story I once posted on insta a few days ago here when I have more time.)

You never know the real person offline, for all I know one of us could be a sociopathic serial-killer ninja grandpa from Mars.

it's so interesting, I got into a state of flow for hours and the world melted away and it was just the book and writing down my thoughts and ideas before I realized I need to have lunch to eat because I am a human and I need to sustain myself else I'll die and if I die I won't be able to complete the book ugh

Told them I'm talking to professors from LSE, Caltech, Amherst, IISc.. and they stare at me with eyes wide open in shock and I'm like what you could do it yourself, that is if you have any research interests, the relevant background knowledge and any motivation to carry it out~

Yeah let's come up with an efficient system to achieve maximum efficiency.. maybe something like determining the extent of overlap between our reading lists and only focusing on completing those books first, or combining the lists into a giant monster list and going through it according to some algorithm, or dividing it up and reading our parts, or getting some surgical brain implants or something that enable us to suck up knowledge from all those books and transcend above all of humanity.. no that went too far let's be a little.. realistic.

Person X: That's funny

Me: Thank you for finding it funny, I'm also working on humour and how humans use it as a tool for social bonding and strengthening connections and relationships by saying the right type of words at the right moment in the right way. Good to notice progress as perceived by another human.

Person X: u talk like f-n mark zuckerberg

Person Y: "haha"

Me: "Thank you for trying to pretend like my humour is funny; I'm in fact fully aware that it sucks, putting it mildly, but I really appreciate it that you thought if you'd suggest you are laughing then I'd think that it's funny (and I'm myself laughing at your underestimation of my self-awareness, as you seem to think I don't already know) when in fact you should let me know the truth so I could recalibrate my system in accordance with what humans really find funny, so I don't have to face the truth in a social situation when the stakes are higher, which is also why people should be more honest if they really care. "

And the current best answer I have is they are no worse and I am no better than them, it's just that I am predisposed in a way that I feel the right emotions and my brain responds in a certain way, my brain reprimands me and makes me feel unsatisfied if I don't do it, and theirs don't, and it's just like that..

Don't feel obliged to reply, I'm just bouncing off ideas. Though I think that you already know this and you are the sort of person who won't anyway just reply due to any false sense of obligation, and say only if you have something important to say and feel like sharing it. But I did feel obliged to let you know that you're not obliged to reply, so I did.

from the preface of my post from this blog titled 'World's Most Selective university':

I wonder who's out there at midnight; parents are asleep so I might have to check out. So annoying. Just gimme a second so I can check out- (muffled screaming sounds, disappears, never returns, replaced by a realistic human-like automaton who is a robotic version of he who must (not) be forgotten, the boy who lived (before he died), you (don't) know who, he will (not) be missed by several people..) Wow, I should try creative writing sometime, I used to- and still do somewhat- think I'm not so good at it. And no, I'm not the robotic version. I'm the real-me. Probably. Oh no, what if I'm a robot and my whole life is a lie, reality is an illusion, oh no freak it it all makes sense-

I don't care being an year closer to death, because I'm not afraid of death as death is just nothingness and there's nothing to be afraid of. It's the suffering and ailments that old age brings, but looking at the progress in longevity research I think that that would also be solved much sooner.

Oh kid, I can not imagine you being anyone who could match my levels of insanity. I'm the impersonation of the dark triad itself, in fact it was termed after researchers discovered me. trust me, you don't wanna know all that I've seen and done in my long life.

Learn from me- I'm just another average confused teenager, and I don't think I'm special in any way. That's how it's done. You say that you're average but you secretly believe that you are superior to all forms, especially after you read about the Dunning-Kruger Effect. /s

Person F: if someone could mimic a bot it's totally you (although if you were truly good at it, i should believe this was written by a bot and i can tell it's a human but kudos on the attempt)

Me: Great to know I was able to fool even a human so confident in their own abilities, though I was really afraid there for a second and thought I'd been exposed and you'd realized that I actually am a computer, an artificial superintelligence system currently residing in a quantum supercomputer in a hidden faculty somewhere in the middle of nowhere. Close call. Phew.

They would be reluctant even if the flying spaghetti monster or whatever god they follow comes down and asks them to do that.

Person H: "Hw r u? Wr r u?"

And I said: "I find your apparent dislike for all vowels of the English language instead of 'u' interesting.

To answer your question, I'm alive and fine.

I'm behind you, look back.

Okay, jokes aside, I'm on Mars fighting some aliens. Okay now really- I'm at home.

Same questions right back at you. Hw r u and Wr r u? I prolly know wr u r but I won't assume.

You could be anywhere. Def not behind me though. Unless you're invisible. Lemme check.

Flashes UV lights. Nope."

Person Q: I will destroy everyone.

Me: Does everyone here include you yourself? I prolly received inspiration for this question from Gödel's Incompleteness theorem- does the set of all sets contain itself? though you don't need to answer that just answer what I asked that's enough.

Person A: "Haha after reading your blog, I’m convinced you’re a sociopath

me- "Haha but do you think I'm so stupid that I'd post about my sociopathic desires and let it known to the world (okay, just the people who read my posts) know about my unethical activities and prevent me from carrying them out in the future? If you really thought that, I'm afraid you are underestimating me, because even though I am stupid, I'm not that stupid, and it'd help you to update your mental image of my personality based on the new information you just acquired, as I can assure you it's relevant and closer to truth than your prior version of my mental image, if there was any at all. Well, there probably was but the question is if you were aware of it. Now you are." (I talk about this incident in my post about Autism)

The mass is already insane. That is, from my point of view. When you see things for what they are and strive for rationality in every area of life, you start seeing insanity everywhere. You can choose to join them. Or you don't. It's a decision you consciously make, and at least you'll get closer to truth and make better decisions than the average member of the mass.

But it's impossible to be 100% true, because if you think you are absolutely true no doubt at all, you are almost certainly (see what I did there?) mistaken because that usually happens when you fall for ideological dogmatic beliefs and refuse to be open to changing your mind in light of contradictory information or at least thinking what sort of info could change your mind.

Someone asked me for a meeting how does 9 PM sound? And I said this-

"I know I probably should not give much weight to how air happens to vibrate and how my brain's auditory processing system happens to affect my subjective phenomenological experience of it to decide whether or not I should hold a meeting at 9 pm with you, but I will make this time an exception because -

1) you must already have taken this into account and have a good reason for why the way 9 pm sounds should be a reliable indicator in favor or against me telling you if I want to keep the meeting at that time on that day, and there must be something mysterious and complex interwoven with the fabric of space-time that you are able to see and I'm not, that allows you to understand how 9 pm sounding to me could help me make a good decision to hold our meeting at an appropriate time, and you somehow also correctly deduced that trying to explain why this is the case to me would be futile, as I'd be unable to comprehend it for obvious reasons; you have a much superior intellect, and we both know it.

2) This is something that doesn't need to be overanalyzed, but a quick cost-benefit analysis and evaluation of all possible alternatives along with their associated risks and probabilities, as well as pros and cons, very clearly shows me that the worst case scenario isn't too bad and I'm willing to take the risk, and it's not even clear what the best case scenario would be, so I'll just depend on your judgment and go by how "9 pm" sounds to me- it doesn't sound as good as, say, Mozart's piano sonata 8, but it doesn't sound too bad either, like some hard metal rock song, so you decide how that sounds, I just gave you an objective and accurate scientific description of how it sounds to me free of bias and subjective value judgments, your call now."

(Note- Just like that, I sometimes just type and send whatever comes to my mind and later look at it and I'm like what the.. I won't say I don't like my brain for doing this to me but I'm surprised [and NGL also proud] at my inability to act normal and also surprised that no one has assassinated me yet. Shouldn't be pushing my luck too much though.)

Me in a new group of acquaintances, not even friends and not all of them people I know, like an actual formal group, and I write a lengthy introduction as usual, and then genius me also write this:

"I am also working on college applications but I've recently grown disillusioned by reality and all subjective mental and social constructs that we have been effectively conditioned by society to value even though they seem to have no basis in objective reality, and so I'm writing essays and giving exams and stuff but trying to wrap my head around external factors that influence our lives and thoughts without our being aware and the dystopian state of society and the thing that keeps me up at night is how qualia arises from lifeless matt- Okay I'll stop. dam it I did it again believe me trust me I tried my best to keep it brief but I failed, and I can assure you that it will happen again.

No I don't curse it wasn't French; a dam is a wall built across a river to hold back the water and form a lake (reservoir) behind it, and When I share too much information or write a longer introduction than intended, it's like building a dam to hold back the flow of information and create a space for me to express my thoughts and feelings. But just as a poorly constructed dam can cause flooding and damage downstream, oversharing and excessive writing can overwhelm the listener or reader and detract from my intended message. So, it's essential for me to strike a balance between sharing enough information to convey my point while also being considerate of the listener or reader's time and attention.

Okay that's not what it meant and pardon my French but that's a pretty good logical reason innit? Sorry if I'm rambling too much I realized I just made it even longer but I'll stop now and sleep because it's night and at night my brain is weird as you might notice. If you think this is not weird I'd like to have a chat. Good night, or morning if it's morning when you read it, or whatever cause time is a mental construct anyway and a photon is able to experience the past, present and future all at once so time has no basis in objective reality as there is neurosc- good night."

To-do list. Ah. Trust me, you don't want to see my to-do list cause it's a collection of very very long notepads with an incoherent mess and jumble of broken ideas that no one except me can understand, like organized chaos or disorder or scrambled pieces of puzzle that only I know how to fit in, but here's the thing, I'm too busy and lazy (yes, both) and it's too overwhelming to arrange all those ideas and organize it but I hope to do so very soon. Necessary suffering.

Might be a few hidden gems in there somewhere, might get me a few unicorns or Nobels in the future (just kidding. okay half-kidding. but I don't care about external validation and my measure of success isn't aligned unconventional and nothing like the societal norms and expectations. Okay maybe a little.) I'm also learning how to use Obsidian, check it out. And Luhmann's Zettelkasten method if you too have too many ideas to organize.

A message I sent to a student group from my time at a hostel:

"I said this earlier but please don't leave the ground floor boys washroom tap running after use. I think I wasn't too clear on the reasons I care about it so much to remind you again and again, so allow me to explain.

I know you all like me so much but really I'm telling you I don't deserve the VIP treatment you give me by turning on the tap even before I come to wash my hands. Believe me, I really appreciate it. Also for anyone who does this, I don't prefer that one, so please turn on the opposite tap for me from now on. Actually, no. Don't. The wasted water and all it's possible future consequences are not worth the effort it takes for me to turn on the tap.

I also realize that the tap that keeps running is the one that's tight and hard to close, but I can assure you that the effort it'd take you to turn if off is nowhere close to the possible harm to the ecosystem, loss of aquatic life and scarcity of drinking water in underdeveloped communities and the possibility of violent conflict in the near future just due to the carelessness of the people in this generation who didn't think about the future generations and what sort of conditions they'd have to live in.

And you'd have played a part in that, have been responsible to bring about such a future, if you don't turn off taps after use or even ignore running taps you come across even if you weren't the one who left them running.

Now at least you know, and if you continue such behaviour, you'll have to accept the responsibility and change the perception of yourself accordingly, someone who doesn't care about the world and the future generations and is fine with being responsible for their suffering. I have posted this here and not in the boys hostel group because there may be other taps running in girls washrooms too I'm not aware of, so just in case you find one, turn it off properly even if it wasn't you who left it running. Thank you."

One kid sent me an image with the caption "Don't fall for a slippery slope argument, which takes a minor event and turns it into a catastrophe." Me reply: "Okay, thank you for this, because people need to be aware of such logical fallacies. But I was actually aware of that, and I deliberately employed such a rhetorical tool to exaggerate the situation. Why? To counter the cognitive bias of scope insensitivity, where people don't grasp the real extent of a situation, and donate to or volunteer for a cause they 'feel' bad about. Not their fault, the human brain has evolved in such a way. And to counter such biases that make it hard for people to grasp the real extent of the problem and it's future implications, you have to sometimes employ such tools. Even after the exaggeration I seriously doubt anyone was really affected, so yeah."

Person J: Sorry for the late reply, I'm not ghosting you.

Me: "I'm also a bit busy nowadays I can understand, and no I don't think you're ghosting me, and such a thought never occurred to me to be honest, I was just thinking you're too busy and I'm perfectly fine with it as I told you earlier; I'm not afraid of you ignoring me as I know how interesting I am, how could you ignore me! Plus I have already controlled your mind successfully, so you can't realistically hope to break out of my charm created with complicated rituals from the ancient dark arts, so nothing to worry about!

Oh and if you do decide to ghost me at any point, I'll follow the Occam's Razor which says that the correct answer in most cases is likely to be the one that is the simplest, so I'll just assume you're dead or something, cuz that's more likely that you ghosting me.

And most importantly, I know that you're not one to play petty unnecessarily complicated word games like that, and you'd let me know directly and clearly like a logical and rational person should if they ever wish to tell the other person that they don't wish to engage in any further conversations with a person due to whatever reason, or even for no reason at all, and like a rational person I'd also try to understand, regardless of any emotions I might experience in that case, because we both have the ability to control them and override them with our logical minds.

For all the reasons I just listed, I would never think you are ignoring me. Don't feel obligated to reply within any certain period of time, because I am fine with you replying any time as long as it's before either one of us dies or the universe comes to an end, which is not forever but still (I hope and I like to think) a lot of time, so relax!"

Personally, I feel an impending sense of doom and a fresh and strong wave of existential dread a few days before my birthday starts .So, I feel like I am already so old, and that I still haven't made any significant progress towards the ideal self I want to be, or any significant contribution to society or improving anyone else's life, and that time is running out and I need to get serious.

Neurosurgery is an interesting career because you get to play with shiny and squishy brains of unconscious people and satisfy your subconscious sociopathic desires with little to no legal repercussions, and no human interactions so perfect for socially inept humans.

This feeling gets more intense when I read about the latest child prodigy who created a nuclear reactor in his dad's garage, solved cancer and world hunger, won this year's noble prize, and got admits to MIT and Harvard. It's the worst sort of inferiority complex. I have recently realized that this feeling is, like most other feelings, irrational, and I should not compare myself with others who are in different circumstances and have different opportunities and levels of support.

BUT, this is only true if I obsess over it. In moderate amounts, I think that this feeling is something deep in my psyche pushing me to be someone I wish to be, and to change some current situation in my life and strive to be my best self.

This is also a theory supported by some new findings in the nascent field of evolutionary psychiatry, and I have my doubts about whether the suffering caused by emotions are commensurate with the benefits they seem to provide, but let's not get into that right now because it's irrelevant to the present discussion.

So the best approach that I have come up with is something I learned from Stoic philosophy. It's to be ambitious and do the best of your abilities to achieve that goal, with whatever you have been given and by focusing on only what is under your control, for example your mindset and attitude. But not wasting time worrying about anything that is out of your control, for example the outcome of your actions, which is influenced by an interplay of several complicated factors out of your direct control.

I don't have anyone else IRL who shares my interests and if I start talking about my interests I suddenly undergo an instant and huge transformation from the world's most introverted person to the most extroverted and talkative person and everything I say is of no interest to others and all of it goes over their heads and I'm frustrated to I just talk to my notepad (It gets everything, hopefully understands me) and hope that by continuing to be myself I'll eventually find my kind of people but it gets kinda lonely

So basically, don't worry if you don't achieve your goal, just try your best. Do your best, and emotionally detach yourself from the results, because that's not something you always have control over. This approach is also compatible with my ideas about determinism and randomness.

So that's something I can do to deal with the existential crisis that strikes around the time of my bday, but I've noticed that some people desire symbolic immortality through having an impact on society or accomplishing grand goals, and even though I'm consciously not at all motivated by the idea of symbolic immortality, I know that our brains are really good at getting emotionally attached to an idea without any good reason and then rationalizing our plans or behaviour to fit it's narrative, so it is a possibility that I am unconsciously motivated to achieve symbolic immortality, though I currently don't have enough empirical evidence to support that hypothesis. (Consciously I think the universe in and of itself is pointless; not quite nihilism, more like existentialism and positive nihilism.)

So after evaluating all the pros and cons, it ultimately cones down to your intuition, risk-taking ability and trade-offs you're willing to make, depending on your values and priorities. I really wish that these things could be formalized in a logical language but unfortunately they can't. Hopefully in the near future.

Once again I'm trying to make a rational decision by evaluating my alternatives, and make a calculated risk with eyes wide open to all the possible scenarios, so even if things don't turn out as expected, I don't regret it because a decision is judged by all the information I had at the time I made it, and it would be a good decision regardless of the outcome, which is influenced by several external factors out of my direct control.

It's situations like these when I wish I had that perfectly rational AI system that I am planning to start working on that uses all the principles of Rationality and decision science in a mathematical form to work out the most optimal decision in any situation but that'll take a fair amount of time.

These are our formative years and till 25 the brain is high in neuroplasticity so everything, like the kind of person you are in future, depends on how you spend your time now

With the interesting projects I could work on, all the time spent on the outdated irrelevant topics. I don't think I can thrive in this traditional school environment. I won't let the system hold me back.

I've sent you a message. There is no identifying information in it, but you'd still know it's me, unless you know any other crazy weirdo like me who is capable of inventing such messages, in which case I'd like you to connect me with them.

LMAO (That's an exclamatory expression used to express pleasant surprise nowadays very commonly used by human youngsters and human teenagers in everyday conversations, so pardon me if I used it in an inappropriate context, and let me know of a better expression to use in such a situation, thank you!)

It's the same mind numbing sitcoms and nonsensical TikTok videos and YouTube shorts, the type that are just to entertain and provide low quality humour that certain people find interesting and I find mind rotting and if there was something that was negatively intellectually stimulating this would be it.

Other than that watching tv all day, doom scrolling on social media, playing video games, gossiping with friends all day, or just doing nothing, just studying how much you're supposed to and being a perfectly average automaton.

I realize very well that it's a commonly used phrase used in this context when a person is already about to share whatever they are prohibiting the receiver from asking, but you don't need to match my levels of insanity, just felt like sharing this to satisfy my shouting brain, please ignore and continue.

On second thought, I'm not actually pedantic enough to overanalyze everything. It's impossible to overanalyze everything but more importantly, it's irrational to do so. I'm selectively pedantic, which means that I only care about things worth caring about. I analyze things- events or decisions- that are either important enough or interesting enough. So either it's consequences make it worth overanalyzing, or it's fun. If not, I don't. If I do, I'll lose out on precious time and cognitive resources or mental energy that could be expended on other more fruitful endeavours; so, high opportunity cost and any expected utility or potential benefits not worth the sunk cost or opportunity costs, even taking into account the best case scenario, which is negligible in comparison to other activities for such events. (I realize that I just did a meta-analysis.)

Also: "or" is confusing. It could mean 'either of the two things' or 'both of them used synonymously' or 'either one or both of them'. that high iq low iq bell curve meme template: one end killing is okay and other end killing is okay; another idea: responding very soon as soon as you get reply from someone not replied for days, other end also same but for reason that you should be logical keep aside ego and not play such confusing petty games for social constructs be dishonest and insincere with a friend or even acquaintance by punishing them for not having the time to respond sooner and how would you like if it was done to you? (Kant's Categorical Imperative), another for the same template: in the middle u get your job done selfishly and then ignore that person, on two extreme ends you help them but different reasons (I know there's that app to create easy memes but I don't have the time might do so soon).

All the research projects and ambitious startup ideas I'm working on by neglecting my academic commitments which I frankly don't give a flying flamingo about pardon my french, and I'm facing all this resistance that's trying to mold me into a more average and typical student but I know I won't let me drive die due to such insignificant stuff and I could achieve much more if I stick with my current plans..

Someday I'll share with you my plan to overthrow the education system, radically reform the curriculum and the whole system and take over the wo.. I mean, create a better education system more suited to individual student's learning styles, goals and abilities. Yeah, that's definitely what I meant, of course. What else could it possible be. ha ha.

SAD when it's cold and dark? Yeah then you're one of the normies (just kidding don't take it personally) I get SAD when it's sunny outside! Which means I have (and am) SAD most of the year, but also means there's something different with my brain (would and should we call this neurodivergent?), but the thing is no one should have SAD no matter the weather, what possible function could such an emotion even serve?

Well I'm a huge fan of snow and cold, despite never having experienced snow. Another fun fact- the average person is like sunny- cheerful and happy, and winter- sad and depressed. For me it's the exact opposite. I feel so happy when it's dark cold and snowy outside, I don't know why it is so, but it's true. And sunny weather makes me depressed. I know, not good for someone who lives in a country with a climate like India.

Every emotion tries to tell us something, what could SAD tell us? Change your location? Control your climate and mess up the ecosystem to cure your SAD and possibly destroy the human civilization in the process but hey, you would not get SAD anymore! And no humans! That's a win-win! Nevermind, that's just my evil mad scientist side speaking, don't listen to him. Point is, SAD is BAD, I don't see anything good. Thank you for giving me another research question to investigate.

Just like she has a biting philia, maybe someone has a philia of getting bitten would be a good fit, as long as the situation doesn't escalate to.. cannibalism..just saying..

Person Z: You know a lot for a person your age!

Me: "Thank you, but to be honest I don't know a fraction of what I wish to know, not even talking about the unknown unknowns, stuff I don't know I don't know. There are all these books waiting in my to read list, and the notepad is now long, very very long, and I doubt I'd be able to get through it in one lifetime lol.

And that's just books. There are also a few lectures and podcast episodes, and topics I wish to master, yet I have this stupid biological brain with it's limitations and constraints- not enough time and cognitive resources, but maybe I should be grateful for what I have. It's still frustrating. Then the fact I'm so busy and I also can't survive on little sleep like some people who can somehow achieve peak productivity with like 4 hrs. of sleep- are you one of them? I know Musk is one. I could be so much more productive."

Here's an anecdote, when I was in 12th grade my section changed and there were rumours that I'm a serial killer probably because I was the silent introverted kid and maybe also because I'm left handed. Good thing I got my section changed soon else I'd get caught. But probably not.

And in college a few days ago a new kid I met nicknamed me Dexter. And I'm not even kidding. Nicknames my batchmates have given me- Computer, Robot, AI, Dexter and Sheldon Cooper. Dexter Morgan, but Lab also fits me fine. Though everyone told me I'm just like Sheldon.

A very common remark everyone gave independently- very formal and robotic, need to chill. One guy said I look like Leonard but act like Sheldon. I took that as a compliment, even if it wasn't. Very talkative lot.

I don't have any particular favourite character, and I don't want to wear anything fancy. I will try not to be the shy kid standing alone in the corner. One guy told me I should play Young Sheldon. And I think that's a good idea. I already keep my shirt buttoned-up till the uppermost button, and I already act formal and nerdy. Now I just need a bowtie and sone pretentiousness. But I can do without the pretentiousness I guess.

Before replying on voice message, let me overthink a bit and analyze my tone, inflection, voice, pitch, word choice, speaking style, phrasing, logic structure of my content, among thousands of other things and then when I'm satisfied I'll send it to you, which is being a perfectionist prolly never but I'll try okay..

Don't laugh because I sounds too childish, you have been warned, and also let me know if my words sound unintelligible or gibberish because I sometimes revert back to my mother tongue which is not from Earth (fun fact- I've been called Mark Zuck twice by two different people within two days, no they don't know each other. And that's not counting others who've suspected me of being AI. Isn't that wonderful?)

Wish me luck, though I have no freaking clue how someone's words which are just frequencies and vibrations travelling through air and conveying an intention that seems to be in their best self-interest yet makes no sense, at least to me, if you think about it, unless there is some hidden subconscious psychological or sociological purpose due to which this has survived and is so widespread among cultures, so yeah-

Wish me luck, or don't, it doesn't really matter, cause it's a formality between acquaintances and I know you would probably have good intentions towards me even if you happen to utter frequencies and sounds that represent something undesirable or carry in my brain negative connotations or any other subjective value judgments which don't affect reality in any way if you don't let it and are aware of it which I am; something like have a terrible luck or go to hell, and likewise not saying anything at all, would be different yet very similar to my conscious logical brain but I'm not sure and the opportunity costs are high and there are no significant downsides yet the potential upsides or best case scenario IMO would be worth the effort and time it'd take you to wish me luck, so the cost-benefit analysis checks out and it probably is a good idea and rational thing to do for you to wish me good luck..

BUT I have also read that if you start believing and rationalizing fiction and finding comfort in it it could lead to some undesirable and harmful stuff later- I read it in that book by Konnikova and probability theory and poker and randomness and cognitive psychology but I can't remember cause it's in my notes so that's more weight against that complicates matters a bit.. so it's unclear what must be done and what is the correct thing to do to maximize the likelihood of me achieving my desirable outcome.. so I guess I'll just leave it to you. your call.

How are you? I do realized that it is usually a formality and small talk but I mean it seriously cause if you tell me something like "I'm not okay" or "Nothing is fine" I'd understand and won't judge, so feel free to let me know if that's the case, and also if you're good. I mean, you do seem to be good from your messages but what I mean is if you perceive yourself as good, which I think you already understood but I felt like stating explicitly and clarifying.

Don't feel obliged to reply, I'm just bouncing off ideas. Though I think that you already know this and you are the sort of person who won't anyway just reply due to any false sense of obligation, and say only if you have something important to say and feel like sharing it. But I did feel obliged to let you know that you're not obliged to reply, so I did.

Person Z: How are you? I hope it's not too early.

Me: "Don't worry about anything being too early, because- 1) it is early but it's not like I'll wake up in the middle of the night to check my social media account because my notifications are off, 2) so you could text my anytime without worrying about it being too early or too late and rest assured that I'll reply whenever I read the comment- (given that during the time between now and checking reddit next, me and my phone are alive, my social media account safe, my cognitive faculties and linguistic ability intact.. so if I don't reply it could be one of those things, and definitely not that I'm ignoring or ghosted you.), and-

3) time is a human construct and IIRC a photon is able to experience the past, present and future simultaneously and there is scientific evidence that indicates how consciousness is a continuous stream of memory that is our way of making sense out of the universe of which time is an important mental construct; how time is something that has it's basis in our brain and cultures and not something objective out there in the world-- So, technically, objectively and scientifically speaking, it is not even possible for you to be early or last, so that's another reason to not worry about it.

4) I just realized that we could have different definitions of "late" and that my interpretation of the word and the context is different from what you had in mind-- so it might help to explicitly define each term to counter the ambiguity inherent to natural language, and this way we could understand each other more clearly. To answer your question, you are correct in hoping so, because I don't think it's too early, even though I just woke up minutes ago, which is probably why I'm rambling so much, so I'll just stop now."

Person V: Where are you exactly?

Me: Sends them the exact coordinates, then types: "Don't go higher than 3D and in any parallel universe that doesn't contain Earth C-137 unless you wish to meet me in a parallel universe, which might not be me, or be a very different me, or possibly I won't exist at all.

I could be a more specific, but then I'll need to use some integral calculus, Linear Algebra and differential equations, and WhatsApp won't allow that, and I'm too lazy to write it down and send you a pic so just try to read my mind through this message.

Bonus points for finding hidden rick and morty reference. Not hidden but yeah.

A little more specific. Earth C-137, Milky Way Galaxy, adjacent to Andromeda and in a universe where the civilization is still a pre-singularity level between type I-minus and type II-minus according to the Kardashev scale?"

Person V: Yes, you can add that as well. The worst that can happen without those specifications is that you reach another parallel universe which is totally fine by me.

Me: "Totally fine for you ofc, but not for me who might unknowingly enter a universe that may have any of the several combinations of the configurations of physical laws that would kill me in a snap or trap me in some ethereal space for perpetuity or filled with beings capable of actions beyond the wildest of your imagination or any of the hundreds of options worse than the mythological hell, but it's fine I'm willing to take the chance."

I have recently started suspecting I'm on the spectrum- oversensitivity to bright lights and loud sounds, socially awkward and inept according to batchmates, dislike for short talk even though I do greet everyone all the time, jumping between topics with no apparent relation.. but let's not get into that.

Person W: Sorry...

Me: "No need to apologize, as I've told you I'm also busy at times but I get it as now..

(warning: incoming logical analysis and comments on apologies) It's almost like a formality now, like two robots following some set of rules: sorry, it's okay. This interaction is like a ritual we perform, like two robots programmed with a set of predetermined responses: "sorry," "it's okay." You know very well I would never be offended by such a small thing, yet you feel compelled to say sorry, and I know I would do the same if you had messaged me and I hadn't read it for more than a day. Can't overcome the intuitive desire to apologize so easily, even when not required, maybe that's why it's called a good habit by society and such a widespread norm."

Busy, overwhelmed and disoriented. I need time to sort it out and organize and declutter my mind.. and my notepad. 6 research projects at once, 3 entrance examinations at once, 20+ blog posts plus writer at two STEM publications, WEF council training, 3 startup projects, why are there just 24 hours and why do I have to sleep and why eat and how on earth do I have time to type th- but I'd be lying if I said I'm not enjoying it.

"I have already been working all day and now sleep deprived and unfortunately couldn't control time to be more than 24 hours a day, though I do have a few projects related to that- not even kidding, it's related to some research stuff in neuroscience and physics that sounds sci-fi but is possible with current advancements but let's not get into that here.. for instance the WEF AI Youth Council project pitch and policy proposal, my recent diagnosis of having high-functioning Autism or Asperger's which would have been fine if I wasn't going through this drama in which this stupid medical system has incentivized doctors to fool ignorant people- much more common in stuff related to mental health and neurodivergence where you are forced to conform and get "treated" and I'm planning a few interesting projects for that too- plus college applications, entrance examinations, blog posts, and much more.."

How a thought-provoking one liner prompted by brain to come up with an interesting essay (Sarcasm intended):

One person had this on their discord profile: "If you are reading this, you are awesome!"

I sent them the following comment, which they understandably haven't replied to yet:

"Thank you for this, I really needed some sort of external validation on my ability to read and be born in a time and environment that enabled me to achieve literacy by the time I came across this line on your discord profile.

I'm elated and so full of joy that you can't imagine after reading that somehow my ability to read that line makes me awesome, and I don't even know whether our definition of awesome is same but why the hell would I even bother to know that when I could just enjoy the feeling of being deluded into thinking that I actually am "awesome"?!

Or is it that you are an omniscient being who has set up the seemingly deterministic and random universe in such a way that only those people who are "awesome" will happen to come across that line of yours and even though a seemingly silly statement very clearly made to induce a feeling of joy in people who really need it, it's actually god in disguise trying to indicate that the reader is going to achieve great things in life?

Okay, you don't need to tell me. You can keep your secrets. After all you might be an artificial superintelligence whose plans I would never be able to wrap my tiny head with my poor human brain around even if you try to explain, so don't even bother.

Also I don't know how I missed that line the first time, or if you added it recently, but once again, it doesn't really matter, just like it doesn't matter if you're even alive or I'm talking to the account of a deceased bipedal carbon-based life form, a human, but nonetheless it was really stimulating and interesting to write a whole fricking essay on it, and I'm proud to say I do realize you have to be a little crazy in the head to do that, and you'd be right to think it's the case with me, because it most likely is. "

Person G: I think you're on drugs, my dude

Me: "You're right, maybe I am on drugs- But you see, my dear child, drugs are wonderful things, and I'm not saying I am under the influence of anything too potent and that's found in the real world and tangible intoxicant, I have never even touched a drug or alcohol or anything like that, but it's just my brain- I'm increasingly becoming like that mad artist who suffers from many mental problems and seems to be quite ill yet produces great works of art- and did you know that writers have historically been the people most susceptible to psychosis and mental disorders?-

and it might sound weird and even be a sign of the illness itself but I'm thinking it might be worth the trade off, because I prefer being the mad unhinged crazy genius artist rather than the mentally healthy yet average normie who has no such talents and knows not the joy of such artistic endeavor. Don't worry, my child, I don't expect you to understand me unless you are an unhinged lunatic like me, so don't worry if all of this is going over your head, because I'd be more concerned about you if it didn't. I feel high without any substance, my brain is like that all the time, and oh how enjoyable it is, even though I'm getting sucked into the abyss and hollow black hole that's opened up somewhere deep inside me and permanently changed my psyche- for the better or worse remains to be seen-

but I understand how it might sound to you; I just can't resist reminding everyone and trying to make them see the true absurdity and sheer meaninglessness and hilarity inherent in the universe and everyday life- I understand Camus well now- and find it so damn hilarious and mock them when the average person does not grasp what I'm trying to convey; how could I even expect such people to comprehend it, but yet I tried, and now I know, it's my sweet little secret, and it shall be mine till my last day, which I can see on the horizon, it's coming for me, it's not very far, and I'm ready to embrace if with open arms and a smiling face, laughing at the universe and myself and everyone who thinks I'm crazy...

Oh my-- what-- did I just write.. I really need to get some help- /half joking I'm kind of impressed and scared of myself now, hmmm, everything I have written seems to be true though, and I'm scared at my ability to express it and now that it has been put into words it seems even more.. somehow both more frightening and alluring at the same time..

Thanks for the prompt though, I could never expect writing all that to "I think you're on drugs my dude" wow I seriously wrote all that in reply to that one line.. wtf is wrong with me laughing-sobbing-laughing-likealunatic snorts-cocaine sips-brandy"

Person G- you have this really cool habit of dissecting people until theyre not people anymore.

Person M: * posts on his insta story literally just an old man emoji*

me: "I'll share my first impression and interpretation, you let me know what you intended it to mean. That's an emoji, and it represents an old man, so we are presumably delving in a complex web of cultural and personal associations, which evokes both reverence and apprehension, as on one hand it reflects the inevitable decline in health of the human body and loss of vitality and youthfulness, an interpretation undoubtedly influenced by the prevailing cultural emphasis on youth and physical beauty, which makes us all biased against old people.

However this also represents and symbolizes with his intricate wrinkles his accumulation of diverse experiences and acquisition of valuable insights, things for which old people are venerated for thieir wisdom and sagacity and acknowledged as authoritative sources of guidance and advice.

Personally, I have mixed feelings, because even though I have so little time- while I yearn to absorb the knowledge and insights of the world through books, I am also acutely cognizant

Of the daunting specter of cognitive decline and suffering that accompanies the inexorable march of time. As I contemplate the approaching twilight years of my life, I'm seized by a profound sense of apprehension and anxiety, struggling to reconcile my desire for intellectual nourishment with the prospect of debilitating deterioration.

Yet I hold onto a glimmer of hope that humanity would make meaningful strides in longevity research, potentially mitigating or even eradicating the scourge of age-related decline and infirmity. In your time, my dear child, I fervently trust that science would have made such progress more palpable and perhaps even paved roads for greater breakthroughs.

With this in mind, I continue to remain resolute in my pursuit of knowledge, tenaciously grasping every opportunity to broaden my horizons and gain deeper understanding of the world. For in the face of the profound uncertainties of life, the quest for intellectual growth and enlightenment remains a Steadfast and enduring source of solace and fulfilment."

I just stated how my brain perceived the events and their motives and put it in a clear and concise scientific language is all I did. But of course humans would think it's some sort of humour. You can also sprinkle in some highly technical scientific or philosophical terms they won't know unless they also love learning, or even stuff from different languages they won't understand, but the former is just enough for me to make them go crazy.

I sometimes fail to detect sarcasm myself, or more like I do detect it and I'm unsure so I ask- I detect sarcasm; please let me know if it's sarcasm so I can better understand how you humans use sarcasm and be prepared when it's used against me in the future, ignore if it wasn't sarcasm, Thank you.

If she is unattractive to you great you just found a potential good friend and you won’t fall for emotional love stuff so these are the people you want to find! If she is attractive, she is almost certainly out of your league, no wait she is certainly out of your league- one of the fewest things I can be certain about including the power of logic and the inherent uncertainty about almost every else- and so you don’t need to be afraid of talking to her and you just found a potential good friend! Hehe

In what capacity can you provide an assurance that your purported preference is well-founded and defensible, and by what standard do you perceive it to be superior? If your affirmation of preference is merely an intuitive one, then how do you validate the credibility of that intuition and elevate it to a dependable heuristic for rendering judgments amid ambiguity? Is there a coherent framework with which you can articulate and justify your response, or do you rely purely on sentiment and intuition? Assuming that I assent to your judgment and self-image, adjust my writing style accordingly, and present a shortened piece of text, but you subsequently reconsider and find it unsatisfactory, thus necessitating an adjustment in your self-perception, how can you guarantee that the exertion of my time and energy was not in vain? To put it more simply, what reason do you have to think that you prefer, and why do you think so, and if this is just your intuition, then what makes you believe that this intuition is reliable and you could use this intuitive preference as a reliable heuristic to make decisions in face of uncertainty, and that it is a reliable guide that would not lead to irrational actions? Do you know of any framework that could allow you to justify your answer and back it up with logic, or just your feelings to go off? How do you know that if I believe your judgment and self-perception and respect your preference and create shorter post and then you read it but realize that oh no i thought it would look good but I hate it and then you recalibrate the mental model of your 'self' to update your preferences which might change again but the time and effort it took me would be infeasible to do all over again?

I can understand if you decided to skip directly to the last part; Thank you for skimming over the post, probably no sarcasm intended. However, if you did read it all, you have my sympathy and I can understand the mental state you are in and what you must be going through to be able to pull off something like that, but also happy that I'm not the only lunatic. Welcome to the club!

Update: A piece of writing- . Just a piece of writing- It might be me, and it might not, but that's irrelevant, enjoy. Kind of an excerpt from some of my random writings I have not posted anywhere on the blog, but I just felt like posting this one.

They are the sort of the person who likes sitting in the corner of the room unnoticed by anyone- no one is even aware of their existence- and they themselves stopped trying to fit in long ago and are happy with their decision, so they're emotionally unattached, indifferent and apathetic, but yet harbor no malicious intentions in their mind against anyone, just prefer to be by themselves and don't care enough about anyone to- and consider their time and cognitive resources and energy to be valuable and much better utilized on other tasks than- going around forming enemies they have nothing to do with, because they are a pacifist and generally an agreeable person, regardless of their true beliefs and interests which they don't usually share with others because they know very well that hardly anyone would even try to understand them, let alone understand them, and they have learned this the hard way, and that's how it has been for a long time now. (in case not clear here I'm referring to myself as the third person I honestly have no idea why but I just feel like doing it and it's fun so bear with me.)

Not committing to any one side, because they know that nothing is absolute, epistemic uncertainty plagues not just all of science but all of philosophy and hence all the ideologies and beliefs too, and believe that being open minded is the best course of action- in a way that you never commit to any ideology, you just evaluate the pros and cons, arguments in favour and against, and hold both the sides without getting emotionally attached to any-

Simply evaluating them with cold logic and reason, and if and when required even articulating your emotions and intuition that make you predisposed to one side but still making sure you never commit- because you know the horrible consequences of falling prey to dogmatic ideological beliefs, and not being able to change your mind in light of new evidence or convincing logical arguments sounds pretty irrational and frightening, and you don't wish to be such a stupid person like many other seem to be, so you just keep ideas at a distance, playing with them and amusing yourself, and employing them as and when the situation demands, because your brain is pretty good at rationalizing and coming up with convincing logical arguments for any side, and so you have to be extra cautious of acting and behaving in irrational ways that could allow your brain to come up with clever rationalizations lest you fool yourself, and with lots of practice you have been able to harness this power and know when your brain is rationalizing and when it's telling the truth, and so you are able to not just understand both sides well but also convincingly play the part of both, but you don't do such things until and unless you are really required to, and until that day you'll remain blissfully ignorant and unaware of the stupid activities of the mass, because after all, the mass is insane, and you the only person who is able to see it, even though you know that you are biased in favour of yourself and others think that you are the one who's mistaken, but you also know that nothing really matters in the grand scheme of things, the universe doesn't care about right or wrong, life is inherently meaningless, and so it doesn't really matters anyway, nothing really matters, and you find it peaceful in a sort of way others are not able to, to your utter confusion and dismay, because you can see how it's such a beautiful and comforting thing, but once again- you're under no obligation to make them see- You do you, and you let them do whatever the heck the wish to. Be the Overman. end

Update 2: Some questions for whoever happens to read it though I doubt someone would, and bonus points if- and I'd love to have a chat with you if this happens to be the case- you are able to understand and also relate:

How are you able to contemplate the weighty task of constantly striving to make sense of this chaotic and apparently meaningless universe, and the unyielding despair that arises from the realization of the suffering and futility of existence, is to grapple with an existential burden that may drag one inexorably downward into the abyss of desolation with ever-increasing intensity? How might one come to terms with the seemingly inexorable meaninglessness of existence and the lack of objective, universal standards of morality and ethics? It is society that shapes us in this regard, but we may never come to fully understand our own inclinations and predispositions, which might have led us to develop superior morals and values.

And even if we were aware of such inclinations, social norms and other predispositions may thwart our ability to fully self-actualize. How does one reconcile these dissonant forces and live a fulfilling life? How can one be content with living in a world where external factors govern our actions and we are expected to abide by rules even when they do not align with our personal beliefs? Are we truly comfortable with enduring the burden of such struggles until our end? and how do you deal with every fresh wave of existential crisis that comes with a more overwhelming sense of guilt for not being good enough and impending doom due to not being able to have accomplished anything significant in this short life?

In simpler language, how to grapple with the burden of constantly trying to make sense of this messy and meaningless universe and the suffering and pointlessness of existence that pulls you down into the void every second with increasing intensity?

how do you reconcile that meaninglessness of universe and the fact that there are no absolute morality and ethics and good or evil and it's society that has conditioned you in such a way but you might never ever discover your own inclinations and predispositions that would help you develop your own better morals and values but cause you care and cause of society and this time and norms you probably won't due to other predispositions counter to that that would have helped you self-actualize had you been able to overcome it, but you can't, so how do you feel about this society and about your own feelings, why are you here on earth, what's your purpose and are you really honestly fine with being controlled by external factors like this and working according to rules even if you don't like them, are you okay with suffering like this until your end?

Take 1 with humans: They are the person who's sitting in the corner of the room unnoticed by anyone- no one is even aware of their existence- and they themselves stopped trying to fit in long ago and are happy with their decision, so they're emotionally unattached, indifferent and apathetic, but yet harbor no malicious intentions in their mind against anyone, just prefer to be by themselves and don't care enough about anyone to- and consider their time and cognitive resources and energy to be valuable and much better utilized on other tasks than- going around forming enemies they have nothing to do with, because they are a pacifist and generally an agreeable person, regardless of their true beliefs and interests which they don't usually share with others because they know very well that hardly anyone would even try to understand them, let alone understand them, and they have learned this the hard way, and that's how it has been for a long time now.

Regarding the ideologies too- not committing to any one side, because they know that nothing is absolute, epistemic uncertainty plagues not just all of science but all of philosophy and hence all the ideologies and beliefs too, and believe that being open minded is the best course of action- in a way that you never commit to any ideology, you just evaluate the pros and cons, arguments in favour and against, and hold both the sides without getting emotionally attached to any-

Simply evaluating them with cold logic and reason, and if and when required even articulating your emotions and intuition that make you predisposed to one side but still making sure you never commit- because you know the horrible consequences of falling prey to dogmatic ideological beliefs, and not being able to change your mind in light of new evidence or convincing logical arguments sounds pretty irrational and frightening, and you don't wish to be such a stupid person like many other seem to be, so you just keep ideas at a distance, playing with them and amusing yourself, and employing them as and when the situation demands, because your brain is pretty good at rationalizing and coming up with convincing logical arguments for any side, and so you have to be extra cautious of acting and behaving in irrational ways that could allow your brain to come up with clever rationalizations lest you fool yourself, and with lots of practice you have been able to harness this power and know when your brain is rationalizing and when it's telling the truth, and so you are able to not just understand both sides well but also convincingly play the part of both, but you don't do such things until and unless you are really required to, and until that day you'll remain blissfully ignorant and unaware of the stupid activities of the mass, because after all, the mass is insane, and you the only person who is able to see it, even though you know that you are biased in favour of yourself and others think that you are the one who's mistaken, but you also know that nothing really matters in the grand scheme of things, the universe doesn't care about right or wrong, life is inherently meaningless, and so it doesn't really matters anyway, nothing really matters, and you find it peaceful in a sort of way others are not able to, to your utter confusion and dismay, because you can see how it's such a beautiful and comforting thing, but once again- you're under no obligation to make them see-

you do you, and you let them do whatever the heck the wish to.

Take 2 with machines: The person sitting in the corner of the room is unnoticed by anyone, having stopped trying to fit in a long time ago. They are emotionally unattached, indifferent and apathetic, but do not harbor any malicious intentions against anyone. They prefer to be by themselves and consider their time, cognitive resources and energy to be valuable and much better utilized on other tasks, rather than forming enemies they have nothing to do with. The person is a pacifist and generally an agreeable person, regardless of their true beliefs and interests, which they do not usually share with others as they know very well that hardly anyone would understand them. They have learned this the hard way and have been like this for a long time.

Regarding ideologies, the person does not commit to any one side, knowing that nothing is absolute and epistemic uncertainty plagues not just all of science but all of philosophy and hence all ideologies and beliefs too. They believe that being open-minded is the best course of action, in a way that one never commits to any ideology, evaluating the pros and cons, arguments in favor and against, and holding both sides without getting emotionally attached to any. The person evaluates them with cold logic and reason and if and when required, articulates their emotions and intuition that make them predisposed to one side but still makes sure they never commit. They know the horrible consequences of falling prey to dogmatic ideological beliefs and not being able to change their mind in light of new evidence or convincing logical arguments, which sounds pretty irrational and frightening to them. They do not wish to be such a person and keep ideas at a distance, playing with them and amusing themselves and employing them as and when the situation demands. Their brain is pretty good at rationalizing and coming up with convincing logical arguments for any side, so they have to be extra cautious of acting and behaving in irrational ways that could allow their brain to come up with clever rationalizations lest they fool themselves.

With lots of practice, the person has been able to harness this power and knows when their brain is rationalizing and when it's telling the truth. They are able to not just understand both sides well but also convincingly play the part of both, but they do not do such things until and unless they are really required to. They remain blissfully ignorant and unaware of the stupid activities of the masses. The person believes that the masses are insane, and they are the only one who is able to see it, even though they know that they are biased in favor of themselves and others think that they are mistaken. They also know that nothing really matters in the grand scheme of things, the universe doesn't care about right or wrong, life is inherently meaningless, and so it doesn't really matter anyway. They find it peaceful in a sort of way that others are not able to, to their utter confusion and dismay. They let others do whatever they wish to and do what they think is best for themselves. end.